Maybe self explanatory..

Cause honey..if I was gettin some..It would help my frustation levels out A LOT

Jeez

Seriously..I am...
My car, the one I paid $400 to get fixed on SATURDAY (new starter & new battery) wouldn't START today when I was leaving work.
Keagan SCREAMED allllllll day!! He wasn't even happy during therapy which he usually is. And not just crying, SCREAMING & pitching a fit.
The new girl, started crying 4 or 5 times for NO reason. Just out of the blue fits. It was really neat.

Im seriously gonna loose it..ASAP

Hmm...what to blog about?

Basically the weather here, as of late, has been, shitty. So lets start this entry talking about..weather.
The NWS has to be full the biggest bunch of bullsh*tters alive. Seriously. How can one group of people be so wrong all of the time? Except for summer, when they can say "it's gonna be hot & humid all damn day" they are NEVER right! Apparently, we had a "severe weather alert" on Thursday that was supposed to last 24hours..Umm then it was upgraded (if that is the correct weather wording) to a winter storm warning. Now we all know what that means..Nothing! Yay. So on Thursday it was cold, but nothing major, just an inch of snow. So I was hoping something major would start before classes, but no. So as Im driving to school, an ice storm breaks loose, it was tons of fun. It took me almost 60 minutes to make a 20 minute drive. Good times. I had been at school MAYBE 15 minutes when in comes the dean guy and tells us "if you take 65 or 70 to get home you need to leave now." WHAT!? I just got here. He said the traffic report was really bad and really crowded. And guess, what, it was. Not good news. Because it was after rush hour, traffic was light and people hadn't realized it was time to drive like an asshat yet. So the drive home only took 30 minute. By the time I went to bad, the winter warning was gone. Hmm..what?! It was icing and snowing etc, and no bad weather was reported. So Friday comes, and we don't have the day off (huge surprise) and the weather was getting progressively worse. One of our teachers left early and told us it was really bad. So we called parents to come try and get the kids early if they could, which they did with no problems. So right now we have a mixture of snow and ice on the ground. It's really great. Good lord Im long winded and this isn't over.

So Im stressing about wedding stuff. Such as the fact that my mom wants to make the centerpieces for the reception and thats fine with me. But the florist advised that we use roses from Costco or Sams Club to use w/the leaves/branches/candles because paying her would cost $15/table for labor ALONE, not including the cost of making the centerpieces...so I understand my mom wanting to make them..BUT..when you use real flowers, they shouldn't be set out more then 6 hours in advance! So when are we gonna do this? On the day of the wedding Im prob. gonna be pretty much freaking out (cause it's what I do) and I'll be busy getting ready as will all the bridesmaids and mothers..So who are we gonna have set out these flowers? My mom's suggestion was to do it a couple days in advance!?!?!?? Are you kidding me? Has she lost it? And anytime I would suggest something, she wouldn't shut down. Just stop talking. Thats been her newest thing..But anyway, Im gonna have to email Linds and ask her what we should do. Not to mention we still haven't settled on a DJ, a cake, invitations etc. So Im kind of stressing.

Okay..thats pretty much all for now. I owe school like $600 so thats good since I don't have that much and I got a bill today for monies that I paid back in DECEMBER and trust that I receipt from the f*cking SCHOOL and trust also that I will be in there bright and early on Monday to give them $300 for tuition and tell them that Im not paying the roughly $200 they say I still owe from last quarter. This school just loves to screw me, I would NEVER suggest it to anyone!!!! Im never gonna get my degree and when I do, Im gonna be in debt I feel like I'll never recover from.

Maybe thats not all. I just need to say that I feel angry/frustrated ALL THE TIME these days. I don't know if it's cause my hormones haven't regulated yet (from going off BC in December) or what the deal is. But I constantly feel like I want to scream at someone or punch something. I need to join like a kickboxing class or something. Im just constantly stressed. It's school, it's the wedding, it's sometimes Ev, it's just life I guess and right now, it's hard to juggle all of it. Ughh..get me a Valium.

Tease...and not in the good way

So many teases..Like..
1. When exactly will the starter on my car go out completely? Or will it just keep not starting every 2 days?
2. When will get this "severe winter storm" we've had predicted 3x in so many weeks? I don't want anything falling from the sky, be it rain/snow/satellites if it's not going to close school so that I have a day off. No precipitation at all. Thanks.
3. When will I get my MOS work done? If the neat-o comptuer would stop f*cking around, that'd be great. As LeAnne in my class said "we all deserve a default A for putting up with this sh*t."
4. When will these preschool parents get their stuff together? When will they see how BADLY they are f*cking up their kids? What will it take?
5. How long until I punch GF so hard that her teeth are in the back of her throat? I swear to gosh, the longer I hold this anger in, the more violent the eventual outburst will be (and there will eventually be an outburst).

That is all for now, I need to vent more, but I just don't have the energy. Same sh*t, different day. Over and over and over..

Some E Cards

Im not too dead sure if you've visited the website someecards.com but you really should..Here's an example of why...


So as of now, there will most likely be one ecard/day as it correlates to how Im feeling..They crack me up so much..Go visit!

An update..

Here's updates..yay
1. I was gonna go into the sh*t that went down on Friday, but basically the teachers at PS decided it would be fun to gossip about me, one teacher that I shared something with in confidence shared that information with everyone else. So one of the teachers tried to question my morals, and told me to stop going to my mom w/everything and I basically told her to mind her own business, that my morals are intact, and that what Mrs. G does she does of her own accord. I have nothing to do with she does. I was FURIOUS!!!! But Im trying to let it go since I know that I didn't do anything wrong and what goes on in my life, is MY LIFE. I also didn't bring up how f*cked up her children ( and everyone else's kids) are. Cause Im good liked that. But it wasn't very good and I have to admit Im still pissy about it.
2. We never got the WINTER STORM. They downgraded it during the day to a snow warning and we got jack sh*t. Basically what I said, 1 inch of snow and enough crap on the roads to make going to work rough. BUT, later in that same day, we got over an inch of ice and my night classes were cancelled which was awesome. They totally missed that! How many times can weather people be wrong and still keep their job? Must be nice.
3. I haven't paid for school in like 4 weeks so I owe them $400 so thats not good news. I justh haven't paid since I was sick. Classes suck right now because on one my it's all online and you have to use the computers at school, as in, your assigned one, and they keep freaking out and shutting down, so as soon as I get ahead, they f*ck up and I have to start over or go through the print-out to see what all is wrong. 2 Saturdays ago I spent 3+ hours at school w/a girl from my class to fix all the errors in my work..and it's not user error, it's the program messing up. Ughh..Im never gonna get all my work done. Not to mention I keep forgetting about homework that is due in my professional perspectives class. It's like I just can't get it together..Who knows.
4. We are going on SPRING BREAK!!!! Im so excited!! I haven't been to the beach in like 4 years! The last time I was at the beach we went to Virginia..We are going to Gulf Shores, Alabama this time and staying in a REALLY nice condo directly on the beach w/an ocean front balcony. It has wifi so Im pumped about that. Just get me a daiquri and a beach chair for 7 days. NIIICE. Even if we weren't going anywhere, I'd be taking those 7 days off. Honestly, I need a break!!
5. We had a plumbing issue at PS today. The toilets, drains, everything started backing up and the water stopped working, so we had to send all the kids home. It was nice..But i was off at 2:00 anyway, but the parents didn't have any complaints. Hopefully they still aren't working tomorrow!

Okay, thats all for now!

Lord, the drama

It's kind of been a "dramatic" 24 hours. And not in a world (or even life) changing way. Just in a "why do I need more BULLSH*T in my life" kind of way? I couldn't blog about it last night because I was still so pissed that I couldn't make sentences. But here's a brief insight, I'll have to elaborate more later..
1. Drama at work: old biddies have too much time to gossip and they are soooooo perfect that they feel the need to try and bring me down..Get a life!
2. Drama w/the wedding: My wedding gown came on Valentines Day, now I can't get ahold of ANYONE at the bridal store! Nice! Not freaking out at all, of course.

Okay, elaboration at a later time as I have to go get some work done.

Yeah, right

So for the 2nd time in 2 weeks the National Weather Service has called for a "winter storm warning."

The National Weather Service has issued a Winter Storm Warning for all of central Indiana from 7pm this evening to 7pm Tuesday. Heavy amounts of snow is possible through this period, ranging from 4 to 7 inches. Significant sleet and freezing rain is also possible. This could create dangerous driving conditions on roadways.

Yeah, right. Just like last time when they called for 4-7 inches of snown, 1/2 inch of ice, terrible, end of the world type of stuff...In actuality we got 1-2 inches of snow, enough sleet to make driving to work a b*tch and that was it. Nary a snow day in sight..And i FOR SURE called that one, down to the number of inches of snow. Fast forward to the 5:00 news tonight. They basically said "Indianapolis is under a winter storm warning." And onto the next topic. They screwed up so bad last time that the local weather stations are refusing to say how much snow/ice/sleet/mix, when it's coming, when it will stop etc. It's kind of funny. Once again I go w/my prediction of 1-2 inches of snow, enough sleet to make it a b*tch to go to work and thats it. It was "snicing*" earlier but that has been it so far. We'll see how it goes. If there is, miraculously a snow day tomorrow, I'll be sure to update. But for now, I have to take an exam and get going on this MOS stuff.

*snow & ice=snicing

Mildly Frightening

Im mildly frightened that I am getting sick..AGAIN. Evan has been sick for going on 3 weeks..I told him he needs to go back to the doctor tomorrow or at least call and get an appointment. His cough is BAD!! Not to mention there are 2 teachers that have been coming to school sick for 2 weeks and we had 15 kids out sick on Friday..But they have been coming to school sick as well. So as of now I have a stuffed up nose, sore throat, and Im really dizzy (like when I stand up too fast) and it feels like I took a painkiller, but I didn't..Im not a big fan of this. My mom even said she see's me getting sick this week, but for another reason. My allergies are seasonal, so when the weather changes a lot, I get sick easily. So we went from the 50's to -20 in about 24 hours so thats why Im not feeling well. Hopefully I stay fever free cause right now, that's all thats going to keep me from going to work, if i spike a temperature. And I will for sure be going to school if I get sick again. Hopefully, Im worrying for nothing..

Nothing much else going on. Im tired so I'll have a better update tomorrow.

**UPDATE**

I have never been more happy to be wrong!!!

GIANTS WIN THE SUPER BOWL!!!!

Oh my god! Can you believe it? I am so pumped! Peyton winning last year and Eli this year. I just can't get over it. New England, it's not a perfect season UNLESS you win the BIG game!! And you didn't!! YAY!!!

Congratulations to the New York Giants!!!


Im almost as excited as I was this time last year...ALMOST

Mostly I love football but...

But here are some things Im SICK of this season~
1. Troy Aikemans hair: WTF? Did something die on his head? What is going on? Im scared of it.
2. TOM BRADY: The best player ever,EVER, ever in the NFL. All his F*cking weapons, how great his is etc. And no, it's not because there is an element of truth it in. I just hate him. But not nearly as much as..
3. Ellis Hobbs: For some reason, this guy drives me nuts. I just can't stand him or the way he plays. He's just a douche
4. The New England Patriots: Why did we even have a season? Why, back in lets say October, didn't we just declare the best team in the world ever in the history of football, give them the trophy and move on? I mean obviously, no one is as good as them except for the fact that
5. They CHEATED!: Now, Im not sick of hearing about this, cause umm, it's kind of been brushed under the rug. The NFL is showing that cheating is okay. How much did they charge Belichek? Like $100,000? Thats pocket change to him. They should've told them, hey you can play this season, but it's not gonna mean anything. Or something of that nature. Many, MANY young children watch these games and follow these teams. Explain to them how cheating is wrong UNLESS your an NFL team/coach. Oh wait! That doesn't work. And now the news that there is a chance that NE cheated during the 2002 Super Bowl. Wonder if the NFL will just let this go as well.
6. The "talking heads": These people make me crazy. Every single week, for the whole 16 weeks of the regular season, talked about how great NE is. Umm, Im seriously not partial, but the Colts were very good this season, the Giants, obviously are fantastic, and guess what, NE isn't the only team in the NFL. Please recognize that.

Anyway, Im SO sad that the Colts aren't coming on the TV right now. It should be Giants Vs Colts. Manning Vs Manning, that would have been AMAZING! But alas, the Colts came up short, as they have in the past. It's unfortunate. But whats more unfortunate, as Im sure Im about to see, is the introduction of the Patriots. I may need to go vomit. The true essence of the team is "team work?" Im thinking not. Maybe "cheaters" "assholes" "jerks" those all come to mind quickly.

Im 100% hoping for an upset. Im 100% sure it't not gonna happen. (I absolutely love that NE is currently getting BOOOOOOED as they come onto the field)

I REGRETTABLY say New England over the Giants 38-24.

I will be updating if Im wrong, and be excited about it.

Senseless things I think about in the shower..

Such as the fact that my new razor smells soooo good and makes me think of spring. It's one of those razors that comes w/the stuff that lathers up and the scent is cucumber melon..Which is a smell that I usually abhor! But it made me think of dirt and flowers, like when you spend the day in the garden. It was so clean smelling..It made me want to go out and plant a yard full of flowers before I remembered it's FEBRUARY in INDIANA and the ground is 110% FROZEN!!! Ughh I was so looking forward being eco-friendly once in my life.

I also realized I change shampoo and soap so often it's ridiculous! For pretty much all of January my hair was a mess! It was oily ALL THE TIME! So I had to get like 3 shampoos before i found one that keeps it under control w/o completely drying it out. And I also change shampoo on a whim. Like I smell one in the store and there I go buying it. I could seriously supply a beuty salon w/all my 2/3 full shampoos and conditioners. Same with my body wash soap. I change those constantly. I want one that makes me look like a model. Good skin & thin. Where is that soap? Right now Im currently in love with D*ove w/gentle exfoliants and Aussie Cl*ean and M*end shampoo and conditioner, and of course, my new razor. Now here's the rub. I bought this John Freida gloss for your hair thats supposed to make the color last longer. Im not exactly a "natural" rehead and that color faded SOOOO fast, so this is supposed to be the answer to my "I don't have $100 every 3wks." prayer. Umm except that it was exerbating the oil problem and I haven't used it in over 3wks. It just sits there rubbing in the fact that I paid $12 for that small amount. Hopefully my hair will get it together soon and I can use said expensive hair gloss.

Okay, those are my senseless thoughts so far today..there may be more later..




OH YEAH! In HUUUUGE news..Evan passed the ISP physical!!!!!! Im so proud of him, but now he is deathly sick. Im just so glad he passed. As sick as he's been, I was worried. So yay!!

And how's your resolution going?

Cause mine, not so much, obviously!

So Happy February! I cannot believe we're 2 months into 2008 already. Thats insane. When I was a kid, it was like I didn't have a concept of time. Now, it's like, it's constantly moving. Obviously. LOL..Anyway..It's been what, 10 days since I was here? Im trying to keep up on being a good blogger, but I do forget. So I missed 3 days of work and all week of school which means, Im waaaay behind. In my CPU 200 class I was a lesson ahead, now Im a lesson behind and I can't work on anything from home (as of now) because my trial version of Microsoft 2007 expired and it won't let me do sh*t on the word program (or excel or powerpoint) which is REQUIRED for the class. Now I have MC 2007 to install, but I need Evan to install it because I don't know if I have to remove the trial version or not. Just like I didn't know I had to remove the trial version of Nor*ton before I installed my new one. Good thing he was here to do that for me. But as of now, he's not here, and I don't have time to wait til Sunday for him to install it. I was planning on spending tomorrow working on that class. I guess if it come to that, I'll go to school tomorrow from 9-12 and get work done. Im also way behing in my MOS class, but not just because I was sick. In this class, you enter doctor's office data (like appointments, Dx, patient info. etc) and your assigned a computer in the the lab that ONLY you use. Therefore, you can't take the work home cause it has to be done from that computer. So, when the computers at IBC go on the fritz, it's impossible to do your work. Monday, 5 computers f*cked up and 5 of us go to go hoem early. Normally, that would be good news, except that for me, this is the 2nd time this has happened so while everyone else is in chapter 4 or 5 Im stuck in chapter 3. And then, at the end of each chapter, you have to print off a review of your information to make sure everything is entered right. Well the computer decided to copy 2 patients over into my files that aren't really there and now the prof. has to go through and get rid of the two extra patients while trying to save my other information. In a word, panic. As in thats what Im doing. We are going into week 5 and Im 2 chapters behind. Not good news. The only class Im half-way caught up on is Prof. Persp. Although I had a make-up test I wasn't ready for yesterday and half-assed it and forgot about a mini-paper we had due. Good job MA. Oh and I haven't paid tuition for the week I was sick or last week, so bye bye $280.00. So thats school in a nutshell. Always fun, always exciting.

Wedding wise, got some good/bad news this. So lets start at the beginning. I don't like the pastor of my church, in general. I think he's fake and that he is turning the church into his own superficial fun house. I used to really, really like him and get a lot out of his sermons. He's the pastor that baptized me after I said I would never do that. He was really awesome, until about 2004. That year the church decided (well thats not an accurate point, some PEOPLE within the church decided to secretly purchase what is now the Community Center and tell other members it was this great thing and you should donate TONS of money to them). Anyway, that was the year that Rachel and I became friends and it was because we both thought it was a little screwed that the people involved in the purchase of the center (the pastor included) thought it would be a good idea to hide the fact that this place wasn't going to be part of the church, but it would be a "seperate entity" So the money and work going towards the center wasn't part of the church, though members were being lied to that it was. So one Sunday in the summer of '04, Rachel and I went before the church during a business meeting and let it be known about the seperate entity bs. To say people were shocked would be a massive understatement. This was one of the scariest things I've ever done because going before the churh meant that the people that were involved in this "secret" would be in the audience. They were pissed and there was a general uproar. The meeting last 2+ hours. Some people had a LOT of explaining to do. So to get back to my point, the pastor proceeded to go in front of all these people and call Rachel & I liars, backstabbers, bad Christians, faithless, against the church, just really bad, awful things. I've not liked him since then, especially when it came out that he was part of the group that lied about the center in the first place. He was part of the facade and never apologized for the names he called me (and her) and the fact that he had the gall to question our faith and whether we were really saved or not. He's kind of a sh*t. And as previously mentioned, enormously superficial. Like another "for instance." This year on my b-day the preschool children had a performance on Sunday morning. After it was over, the pastor introduced the then director in training, Kristi and went on about how he just loves working in the preschool and going down and visiting the children....Umm..number one, he has NEVER worked in the preschool and he pretty much makes it a point to avoid the children at all costs. He never comes down to see the kids unless he is leaving some kind of note for the boss or has to pass through to get to another part of the church. So see how he likes to make himself look better then he is? Superficial. So ANYWAY, we received a letter this week letting us know that he is retiring from the ministry and therefore will no longer be pastor of our church. Cue the Hallelujah Chorus. I am pumped. I am hoping we look for someone younger, and that has a heart for Christ that can stay out of all the church politics and can genuinely & effectively help the church grow. And then I had this thought, "what if the church hires D.Thompson?!" Oh sweet Mary. That would be the only thing worse then what we have now. She is crazy. She preaches all kinds of hell and damnation, not a good preacher, she's very liberal, eco-friendly, etc. and not so very nice. She'll have her ordination in May. 1 month after our current pastor leaves. Oh lord no. So I just flat out asked the secretary in the office that knows whats going on who was going to do weddings and pre-marital counseling now that the pastor is leaving. And who do you think is doing it? DT? YEP!! I almost passed the f*ck out. There is NO way she is doing my wedding or premarital counseling. Now, we have already scheduled my childhood pastor to do the wedding ceremony, but since he is retired, he doesn't do pre-marital counseling. He's doing the wedding as a favor to me since he christened me. So the good news is the pastor is leaving, the bad news, DT might become the new pastor and is in charge of weddings. Ughh..so I don't know what we are going to do about counseling. I think we may try to see if the pastor from my old church will do it or if someone from CTS can do it. I don't know. All I know is that if i get married again, Im not having a wedding or counseling. I'll just run off and get married and no one will know.

Evan. Where do I even begin? First of all his stubborness will someday get him killed..by me. Here's a theory I have. If something is wrong, and you can fix it, or at least make it more tolerable, and you CHOOSE not to do anything, then you don't get to complain about it. Such as, if you're sick, and you CHOOSE not to go to the dotor or take medicine, then you don't get to complain about said sickness. Which is why, when Im sick, i go to the doctor and take medicine cause I wanna get to complain about it. So, Evan starts feeling sick last Saturday (as in SIX days ago) and goes to work out on Monday and get sick. Now to my knowledge, he went home and then took off Tuesday and Wednesday. Not so much, he worked on Monday (which I learned from his sister) and he went to work yesterday (and to the gym and consequently overdid it). So today, he calls me and tells me he is going to the gym because he has the ISP exam tomorrow morning and that he isn't going into work because the doctor said he has a severe sinus infection and the flu. As it turns out, he lied and did go into work. Now, I don't care if he wants to go to work on his deathbed, thats fine with me. But dont f*cking LIE to me about it!!!! So we talked about, reading of the riot act ensued and he apologized, which I let him know doesn't make lying okay. It's not about him going to work, it's about him feeling like he needs to lie about things that are going on. Why lie about something so dumb as work?! He knows I have trust issues and him lying about something dumb makes me question whether he is lying about big sh*t. Ughh that just makes me crazy. So I had to email his sister (commonly referred to as almost-sista) and vent. And she understood and agreed so at leas I know Im not the crazazy one.

Okay, thats all for now. Well it's not, but the Papa Murphys pizza is done and I.Am.Starving