Vivi,
I know it's only the 11th, and your birthday isn't for 4 more days..But you've been on mommy's mind a lot lately. This would have been the year that you turned ten. Ten years old. That is just amazing to me. I always have & always will wonder about you. Who you would have looked like. What color your eyes would have been, your hair, would you have had any at birth? Would it be long or short now? Would you be precocious like me? Would you love or hate school. I see you sometimes, in her, Elaina, your little sister. There are some times when I glance at her and she is just ethereal & I know that is you. Or sometimes when she cries out in her sleep & before I can get to her, she is comforted. That's you. I see little glances of you in different things that happen in our lives. I miss you with an ache that will never leave my heart. I hope you've met the other 8 babies we've lost since I lost you. I hope you know one that is coming to stay in our family forever. I'm so sorry I never got to hold you in my arms. I was so unprepared sweet Vivi, but I was so ready to love you, to be your mama. I miss you. I love you. A part of my heart will always belong to you my sweet Genevieve Elaine.
Love
Mommy
