Mrs. Joyner-ology

So I heart this!! I saw it over on Rain's blog and thought I would do the same. Im a big fan=) I promise an update w/pictures is coming. For real this time!! Also, as Rain said, YOU, everyone who reads me, all 37 (can you believe that?!) are tagged. Copy & paste w/your own answers!!

FOODOLOGY:


What is your salad dressing of choice? Balsamic Vinegirette (spelling?)

What is your favorite sit-down restuarant? Buca de Beppo (we had our first date there, and my bachelorette party was there..so.freakin.good.)

What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Jimmy Johns. (My Lord, the #9)

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? See above. Both of those plus Pizza Hut pan pizza.

What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepparoni, extra cheese, bacon
How many televisions are in your house? Two (one is our 64in. HDTV, a perk of marrying DH)

What color cell phone do you have? Red (I really want my old purple one back..I hearted that phone)



BIOLOGY:

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right, and am in no way ambidextorous (umm nor can I spell it, lol)


Have you ever had anything removed from your body? 4 wisdom teeth, tonsils, adenoids.

What is the last heavy item you lifted? Moo-Moo in one arm, Allie in the other. A good 90lbs combined. (Just to prove I could, not the best decision)

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Twice (once by a door, once by a cleat to the face)

Have you ever fainted? Swayed, but not completely gone down.



BULLCRAPOLOGY:


If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Nope. I worry enough about things I can't control as it is.


If you could change your name, what would you change it to? I've finally learned to love my name..It's in honor of my 2 grandmothers.


How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Umm..5? (Black, brown, yellow, orange, and sparkly tan)

Last person you talked to? DH.

FAVORITOLOGY:

Season: Autumn..we got engaged in September, married in October, and my birthday is in November =) (I so totally want to have *at least* one fall baby, as if I have any say so)

Holiday? Christmas, of course =)
Day of the week? Thursday..cause thats the day I get to sleep in.

Month? October & April (Can't I have 2?)

Color? Purple all shades, even the ugly ones =) (An interesting fact, well maybe not, but I think it is, lol. There was absolutely NO purple in our wedding. My mom was beyond shocked. But dangit I wanted a fall wedding, purple isn't a fall color.)

Drink? Diet Sierra Mist-Cranberry Splash

Alcoholic? Ameretto Sour

CURRENTOLOGY:

Missing someone? Nope.

What are you listening to? Evan & Moo talking, and both of them telling Allie "stop" and "NO".

What are you watching? The computer screen & Christmas Vacation (Moo's current "favorite" movie)


Worrying about? Maybe a shorter list would be what Im *not* worried about? My biggest worry? Money & getting (or lack thereof) pregnant.


What's the last movie you saw? Forgetting Sarah Marshall (lovey!!)

Do you smile often? Yeah. DH makes me laugh all the time and you can't help but to smile when you do that.

If you could change your eye color what would it be? I wouldn't change them. They change w/my mood/feelings. But I secretly hope our kids have DH's vibrant green eyes and his sisters RED hair!!


What's on your wish list for your birthday? Oh thats so far away. A baby? More realistically? A day @ the spa.

Can you do a chin-up? Bahaha..Using which chin?


Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Both, but more anxious and excited..lol


Have you been in a car wreck? 3. My dad and I were t-boned on the way to church when I was 12, I hit someone on the highway when I was 16, and I was rear-ended when I was 17.


Have you caused a car wreck? Not on purpose. But I didn't realize that my parents van had a HUGE blindspot and I totally hit a lady on the highway, shutting it down for 45 minutes (she was fine btw, I wouldn't drive for WEEKS).


Do you have an accent? Not when Im at home, but the further south we get, the more pronounced it becomes. By the time we reach our southern destination (usually Gatlinburg, TN or Gulf Shores, AL) Im all but a local in my voice inflection.


Last time you cried? Umm, sometime last week. Someone told me they were pregnant or something else that in normal life doesn't make one cry, but in the infertile world, it does.

Plans tonight? DH is working, Moo and I *might* be going to my parents house for lunch-dinner. Who knows?

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? I can tell you the date. January 6, 2010. I came back out of that pit a few weeks ago.


Name three things you bought yesterday? A candle, McDonalds, and an energy shot.

Have you met someone who changed your life? Yes, Moo-Moo, and my husband.

For the better or worse? We are so lucky to be on the flipside of the worse. We are completely in the better.

How did you bring in the New Year? Really? We found out on 12/31 that our pregnancy wasn't viable. So that was awesome. And we were both asleep by 11pm. Exhausted.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Absolutely. I don't know if I'd change anything, but I'd love to see things from a different perspective.

What songs do you sing in the shower? Believe it or not, I don't sing in the shower. I try to just relax and forget about stuff while Im in there.

Have you held hands with someone today? Not yet (since we all just got up) but Im sure I will at some point.

Who was the last person you took a picture of? Moo-Moo=)

Are most of the friends in your life new or old? A mixture of both.

Do you like pulpy orange juice? Not in any kind of way. Im a texture person, and that.is.disgustin.
Last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? Umm a couple of weeks ago?

What were you doing at 12 a.m. last night? Sound asleep. I've been exhausted lately!!

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Which time? The last 2 nights, I've tossed and turned and woken up at odd hours. When I woke up for real, I wondered if it had snowed again.

A Positive Test

No..not that kind..

So thats why I've been peeing about 2-3x every hour..I figured as much. Dr. C treated me for one about 2 weeks ago..Apparently that didn't take. I've kind of known this and should have got to the doctor today, but I just didn't have time. Now I wish that I had. Also, how did I not know there were at home UTI tests!? More sticks to pee on!? Yes please. Bahahaa. For now, Im just using the OTC generic AZO stuff for "urinary pain" and if I can't get to the doc tomorrow or Saturday (which I know that I won't) my mom has some leftover Keflex @ her house. I KNOW!! Shhh. Don't tell. But if I can't get to the doc til next Thursday and Im peeing 48x a day..that's TOO much. And Im in pain. I KNOW. I'll go next week. I promise. Also, I have a sinus infection, so thats rad.

Also it's Melissa's birthday..Go give her a hug & some love as she's kind of been having the blahs lately..

Okay, I *promise* & pinky swear, I will do an update tomorrow!!

Disappointed

Today MASSIVELY sucked in the RE department. How many miscarriages does one have to have before they start getting treatment? Before the RE starts taking the RPL seriously?! Is there a magic number!? We, 100% , for sure, seeing a new, better reputed, doctor on the 17th of March. St. Patricks Day, lucky? Maybe. But suffice it to say, there most likely, will NOT be a 2010 baby for us. Im seeing May as the earliest that we get to have treatment. And I am so fucking pissed about this. I'll go into detail and do an update tomorrow. Fuck.


**Also** I need to loose a shit-ton of weight, like yesterday. Maybe if I could stop.eating.cookies and tacos. that would help. I am full of the fatty mcfatfat. Ughh. Melissa, send me your plan!!

Dammit

You know whats late & a cutthroat bitch!?




AF. That's right.



Also, BFN. For real this time. No taking the tetsts apart or any of that shit. Accepting it & moving on. I *had* an appt. on Thursday, but I've been bumped because that is her surgery day. Dumb scheduling people. We're going to have a "phone consult" tomorrow regarding my next (forced) cycle and the Femara. What should I ask her? Also, they STILL haven't gotten back to us on E's bloodwork..that he had done at the beginning of fucking January. Fantastic. Any of my bloggy friends (in Indiana) know good, reliable RE's? F this shit.

I was gonna do a big ol update, but now, Im not in the mood. I just knew in the pit of my stomach that I wasn't PG, but it stings none the less. Whatever.

Off to comment. I heart ICLW!!

I Suck

• I totally thought we were supposed to send out our socks by today...so of course mine are going to be late getting to my person, so Im gonna wait to post my pics til she gets hers. I feel like such a jackass. Gah. Im retarded.
• I did not see the doc on Saturday. I see her this Thursday. Symptoms? Sore boobies peeing about a million times a day (seriously, it's A LOT, so I think this mght be a UTI), cramping sensations, but no AF (it was due yesterday) and no I have *not* retested. I just can't bring myself to do it. To have failed again, and to know Im not cycling on my own. I know, it seems like Im not taking this seriously, but I am, and please don't judge me. We've been through this so many times, I just wanted to wait until AF was "officially" late. She is. Im not totally freaking out...yet.
• I have a ton of of stuff to update you on..including my 365..but I am *so* tired (another symptom?) that I can barely keep my eyes open, not to mention I've been fighting a sinus infection for almost a week now & it's hard to catch my breath since I can't breathe through my nose. Ugh.
• Okay, sorry for the crappy semi-update, I'll do better tomorrow. Oh, and I apologize for being a crappy commenter, I will resume good commenting tomrorow..promise =)

ICLW Intro-February 2010 (And ABC's of Marriage)

Welcome to my blog...Im gonna introduce you to me & DH..yay!!!

A: Anniversary: Well, we actually celebrate 2 anniversaries...We celebrate the date we got together (May 27, 2007) and our wedding date, October 4, 2008. We've been together for almost 3 years and married for almsot 17 months.

B: Buddies: My husband is my best buddy. We just don't socialize that much anymore. I would say we both have friends outside of each other, but I love doing things w/him the most.

C: Cuddling: I have to be in the mood to cuddle. But I like doing it when we are watching tv, but in bed. Nuh uh!! Im not the biggest fan of being touched when I sleep. Im weird, I know =)

D: Date Night: We don't have a traditional "date night" but we try to go somewhere nice (ish) once a month. We've recenlty re-discovered Houlihans & O'Charley's and we are *big* fans!!

E: Embarrassing: We both emabrass each other at different times. I.E. we talk about douching or adult diapers at Walmart. I use profanity at "family" resteraunts (quietly, but enough to embarass/make DH laugh). He does the same thing to me when he sings in public..oh don't even gt me started.

F: Fighting: We argue about every day. Usually, it's just me being stubborn or DH being so damn competitive. It might seem bad, but the "fight" part lasts about 7.6 minutes before we make each other laugh. Seriously. We've had very few true fights, and they were while we were seperated and tensions were very high. DH just usually allows me to be stubborn and emotional and then comes in and makes me laugh. One huge thing I've realized from now and 1 year ago is that now when we "fight/argue" we figure it out, or we both walk away and let it go. And we don't ever go to bed angry at each other..because then, you wake up angry, and the cycle starts all over. We either hash it out or let it go...and you know what they say about "make up sex..." =)

G: Golden: Anniversaries are extremely prevalent in my family. Everybody that gets together, stays together. My maternal grandparents were married 59 years, my paternal ones, 49. My mom & dad have been married just over 37 years, all of my aunts & uncles have been married 18-30 years. On DH's side, his parents were married for 23 years until his dad "found" someone else, and they divorced. His dad has since remarried and has been married for almost 5 years.

H: Holding Hands: is one of my favorite things. It's just like, I don't know, outwardly showing that the two of us are together. I also love holding hands w/Moo in the middle. Holding hands is like saying "I care a lot about this person."

I: In-Laws: My MIL is fantastic. Kind, loving, and funny. My SIL is one of my best friends, and thats very recent. We weren't close for a long time. Now, we are like "regular" sisters. It's wonderful. My FIL is a nice guy, turned into an a-hole by his 2nd wife. Who is NOT my MIL or any of that. She isn't my husbands step-mom or anything. She's such a crazy bitch. It's really hard to be around the 2 of them. DH's dad treats him and his sister like they are worthless, and dotes on his step-grandkids and his wife's ADULT children. Whatever. Onwards!!

J: Joking: Oh my goodness, we do this about 50 million times a day. No one makes me laugh like DH. And vice versa. Sometimes his dead pan humor is just too much. There have been many times that I have laughed til I cried, laughed until my stomach was cramped, and times I've laughed so hard that I couldn't breathe and literally had to leave the room to catch my breath. He's the same way, because Im sarcastic and I give "commentary" on things that happen in every day life and that just cracks DH up. I love making each other laugh.

K: Kiss: Pretty sure if you look back a few posts, you'll see our "face smashing" kiss..We love to kiss each other..Even if it's just a quick peck. We don't usually go to bed w/o a goodnight kiss, and we never leave each other for work in the morning w/o a kiss.

L: Love: Something that grows in me and my DH every day. Seriously. I love him more now then I did when we got married and I never thought that would happen. My mom told me that all the time, that she loved my dad more each day, and more so after 30+ years of marriage. And it's true, there are just some days that I just have to take a breath when I realize how lucky I got w/my DH.

M: Marriage: Has been the hardest, best thing I have ever done. Our first 6mos. was really, REALLY rough, and we seperated in April, I just felt like part of me had died. DH felt the same way, those months seperated were the worst of my life. I would never, ever want to go through them again...But at the same time, we needed to be seperated to realize how much we wanted and needed each other. And Im so glad we came back together. Being married is hard, but the good SO much outweighs the bad.

N: New: Ways of doing things, a new car, a new house, new ways of dealing with problems, new life. All of that happened after we got married. And we learn something new about each other (good or bad) every day and I love when DH shows me how to do something that I didn't know how to do. And he loves asking me medical questions. I don't know, maybe thats dumb, but we love it.

O: Opposites: Really do attract!! DH is calm, Im crazy. He's really good at controlling his emotions, I really struggle to do it. He is extremely competitve in everything, I don't take very much of anything that seriously. Im really stubborn, DH really goes w/the flow. And even though there are a lot of opposites, there are a ton of things that we agree on..We really are perfectly matched.

P: Picnic: Our favorite picnics are "carnics." Whenever we go to Gatlinburg and visit the Great Smoky Mountains National Park, we always pack sandwhiches, snacks, and drinks in a cooler and we eat at the base of Clingmans Dome. I love doing that. We did it on our honeymoon, and now we've gone back and done it every time we go to the park.

Q: Quality Time: We live for the weekends because during the week I work 12 hours a day and since DH works outside all day, he's exhausted when he gets home. So on the weekends, we hang out as much as possible, and we never really get "sick" of each other. I can't wait til we have more time during the week to have QT.

R: Respect: We didn't really have any when we were seperated and it was hard to get it back. But we work at it every day and we have realized that w/respect (and trust) then neither of us are going to be happy.

S: Share: Everything. We've really become more open with each other, esp. after our last miscarriage. DH realized how important it was for me to have someone to talk to, that didn't judge me or try to give me advice, to just listen. And we share other stuff, food, ice cream, the covers on the bed, the chores. It's all about the give and take.

T: Time: We don't have enough of it. I really hate that I get home after 7 on the majority of weeknights. And Im exhausted. But we always spend time together, even if it is just watching tv. And we talk about our days, and we usually talk on the phone 2-4x a day, which I guess counts as "time" spent w/each other. On the weekends, we are togther as much as possible. I really miss my husband during the week. So we catch up on the weekends.

U: Understand: That Im not *always* right, although I hate admitting it. And understand that sometimes, there are 2 sides to a story. When I am angry, DH sometimes plays devils advocate so that I can see what the other person's perspective might be, and sometimes he does understand that things just make me crazy and he just listens. And I do the same for him. When he freaks out about stuff, I always calm him down and make sure he knows things are gonna be okay.

V: Very: Happy, much in love, best thing that ever happened to me (DH)

W: Work: People that say that relationships shouldn't take work, are ridonkulous. Seriously. Marriage is hard and it's work, but the outcome, the happiness, makes it all worth it.

X: seX: People "warned" us that we would never have us much sex in our marriage as we did in the first year..Uh. Wrong! We are having more now then ever before, and it just keeps getting better. =)

Y: Yesterdays: Are hard to forget, like any of the past. But you can't live in it. If you don't live for today, and for the future, then things aren't going to work out. We've both had to learn how to let things go (which is really hard for me.)

Z: Zest: Is what I want in my life. Makes things more fun!!

Ummm.....(Edited to add..bullets)

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  Okay, I really had to add some to this post. I really don't have any *hope* that this is for real. I know. 4 tests (or as Tio said, at least 2) tests aren't bound to be wrong..But I still feel cramping/pain going on.
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  Yes, I am calling the doctor in the morning. Hopefully I'll be able to get over to the office before they close at the un-Godly hour of 11am . I can't go b/f work because we are swamped w/patients from 8-10. I would rather go to my PCP, but they don't open until 8, and I cannot be late.
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  Also, it is odd that my RE doesn't consider anyone "PG" if they have 5 or less beta HCG in their system? I had something 10-14 at my last HCG and then it took about 2 weeks for it to fall to 2. So IDK. I know that from what I've been reading, in order for a HCG to read on the test, it has to be at the very least, 20mlU/ml (which Melissa told me means a beta of at least 25). So we'll see.
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  Im actually at peace w/all of this, even if Im not PG. And this is the first time I've been okay w/it. I don't know why. It will happen when it happens. We start Femara in March, so Im pumped about that. But isn't it funny that the 2x we are supposed to be "taking time off" from TTC, I get pregnant (in December) and possibly now? So ridiculous =)
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  And let me know *truthfully* what you think about the tests. I went on fertility friend and saw some of the positives that turned out to be real-live babies were lighter then mine.
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  No, Im not sure what DPO I am. We completely weren't keeping track this month. Seriously. My last AF was on 01/21 and they usually are 30 day cycles. So prob. o'ed on the 8-9th? Which would make me just barely 10DPO. Really, really early to test for me. So we'll see.
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  On a compeltely unrelated note, no matter where you are from, isn't it awesome to hear/see your countries national anthem being played at the Olympics? It gives me chills everytime =)

Uh, scratch that..

I bit the bullet and took a digital test. F-it. Big NOT pregnant. So that settles that. If I were, I do believe it'd have shown up by now. I don't think there's anyway Im PG, but fuck. That still smarts. Thats why I love the normal tests. You can live in delusional land for just a little bit. Okay, night.


**But I will still entertain delusional-land thoughts if you'd like to send them my way =)*

How To Waste Money

Buy the 2 pack of digital pregnancy tests..and have one be obviously negative, one be semi-positive, and the "regular" one that came as a *bonus* test be COMPLETELY negative.  I don't know what to think. I'll post the best pic I could get of them...I think my brain is playing tricks on me...but the CVS brand was decisively negatory, so Im thinking AF should start here over the weekend. But I've been having weird stuff going on. Every morning I've been exhausted to the point of having to leave work early yesterday and actually lay down and take a 30 minute nap at work. I've been dizzy, nauseaus, and shakey and it takes about 4-5 hours for the feelings to wear off. I don't know what to think. Not to mention I've had about an hour long migraine each day since Monday. IDK. I called Dr. C and Im going in to see her tomorrow. Also, Im gonna ask her about the Letrazole (Femara) since our RE doesn't seem to want to call us back. It's time to get agressive. Im sick of negatives. And I know I shouldn't get worked up, because we aren't supposed to be "trying" this month, but still a "miracle" would have been welcome. Obviously, Im not ovulating on my own. Im so done. Im ready to have a baby. Our baby. To make DH a daddy. Wtf?! On a much, much happier note..Go over and wish Tio massive amounts of congratulations..Yay!!!
Okay, here's the pic..

Umm, now that I look @ this one...The bottom one looks positive. I know the glare is bad, but wth? Let me know what you think.

Okay, I don't know if you can see anything, but there is a *faint* 2nd line on one of the tests. Im just gonna go ahead and call this one a negative. There won't be an October baby for us. Onward.

This is my 365-Day 47 from today...I made these cinnamon rolls because they sounded SO good..Then of course, after they were cooked, I didn't want them anymore. They made a fantastical breakfast this AM, and it made DH really happy..They are his favorite.

This is 365 Day-46 from yesterday. Uh, it's still winter here. Big time. Im so, SO ready for the cold to be over. To see flowers popping out of the soil, to smell the rain, to watch life be reborn (and hopefully, welcome one of our own, sooner rather then later).

Here is my boss, KL, cleaning of the icicles of death we had hanging..See above picture. After she got done, we both took turns knocking the snow drifts off the roof. It was a good stress reliever

And last but not least...365-Day 45 from 3 days ago. Allie literally got her head stuck in the couch, she went after some sour patch kids and this is what happens. What a goofball. She wouldn't come out until she had her candy. Goofy dog.

This is the balloon that I got DH for V-Day. It was the *most* obnoxious one I could find..besides the big ol huge one that played music. That was even too annoying for me. But he laughed, and loved it. (And it's 365-Day 44)

And here's the frog bathroom again. Notice anything new? Let me know if you can spot it =) (And no, it's nothing *exicting*)

Okay, that is all. Im tired AGAIN tonight, so Im going to sleep =)

Slacking

That's me. I've just been exhausted since Sunday, I actually left work early today because I could barely keep my eyes open. I came home and took a 2.5 hour nap and Im ready to go back to bed (it's 9:30pm). I've also been fighting a migraine/sinus headache for the last 2-3 days. Major suck. I have been taking my 365 pics, and those (along w/some others) I'll upload in an update post when Im feeling more like myself. Im also reading along (when I can keep my eyes open) and just haven't commented lately. Thank you for all of your bloggy love recently. Okay...Im totally going to bed. Night =)

What The World Needs Now..

 
Happy Valentines Day!!!

More VD, Cause Who Doesn't Need Some?

So to start off this post, I was given another award..lucky me!! =) Thank you so very much to Lily!!

So here are the "rules."

• Copy and paste the award
• Link to the person who sent it to you
• List 10 things that make you happy
• Pass the award to other bloggers, visit their blog, and let them know. Okay, so here goes my 10 things...

1. My Husband
2. Our doggie
3. Moo-Moo
4. Really, really good sales at Bath & Body Works
5. Lindsey (SIL) and Chad getting married in 10 months
6. Gatlinburg, TN
7. Gulf Shores, AL
8. White Cranberry Peach Juice
9. Old 80's Movies
10. Italian Food

Now, onto the ladies..
Melissa
The Wrights
Kelly
LMP
Hannah

Okay..so I have some more VD pictures (lol, maybe someone will find my blog by googling that, won't they be surprised?)  Today, DH took me to Houlihans and they have the *best* food!! It might just be overtaking O'Charley's. So, so good. And they had these 3 Mini-Martini thing..omg. Delish. Also, he took me to Kay Jewelers to take back the diamond earrings I got for Christmas (some of the diamonds had already fallen out) and we *upgraded* to diamond hoops. Little ones, nothing ostentatious, but gorgeous!! And he's just been really attentive and really lovey..Makes me feel special=) And I am *so* not a fan of V-Day. Yay. Oh yeah, he also had a dozen roses sent to me at work on Friday..I was truly surprised!! Love it!!

     From left to right, Key Lime Pie Martini, Adam & Eve Martini, & Guavatini (and *obviously* 365-Day 43)

Mmmm..temptation..

Im a big fan =)

My flowers after they were delivered at work (and 365-Day 42)

And today, after they'd opened up.

One of the "fire & ice" roses.

One of the "peaches & cream" roses

The whole bouquet again..








So thats been my V-Day. It's been really nice, minus the fact that we got denied to finance a Sleep Number bed today..Dammit. My credit is so horrid. How long are we gonna have to sleep on this godawful mattress? I really must pay off that credit card, but I just don't have the money. DH is getting his credit back, but shit. A mattress!? We were able to get a car, but not a MATTRESS!! Jeebus.

Some Early VD =)

As Aunt Becky says, I love VD (because I am so immature)!! So after I got home from work, and lets say, DH was feeling frisky (and my goodness, lets also just say that someone's "drive" has picked up, yay!!) DH told me we needed to go to Walmart. So Im just taking my sweet time and DH is trying to rush me. Now I don't know about you, but I *hate* being rushed getting groceries. I don't want to make 20 million trips back and forth because I forgot something. So anyway, we walk out and we are getting ready to head home and DH pulls into O'Charley's parking lot..He asked if I would be terribly upset if we did our VD dinner tonight...Awwww..And I told him of course not. He is working Saturday night and Sunday it will be crazy. I thought this was a pretty ingenious plan of DH. Now, I was totally grunged out (black shirt and jeans w/my crocs and crazy hair) but we took pics anyway. DH says I have a VD present, but I can't have that til the actual day. Dangit!! So for my 365-Day 41, here's my early VD present. Sorry, I just love using that term.

Me, having a made from scratch strawberry lemonade..SO good!!

The DH, trying what to decide to eat for this super romantic meal =)

He decided on the prime rib...mmmmm. Nom.Nom.

And I had the 12 spice chicken fettucine.









And for your viewing pleasure, just a taste of our snow. Im sure I sound like such a wussy to my blog friends out east...but this was a big deal for Indiana..lol.

Now up to the top of my boots. About 14 inches!!

View from our front yard. We are basically parking on sheets of ice. It's pretty fantastic.

See here you can see how the plowing geniuses plowed cars in, like mine, so they couldn't get out. That was pretty fantastic. Not to mention, see the pile of snow? Drifts. 30mph wind did that. Don't be jealous..lol







Okay..Today was a looooong day. Please explain to me why, on the days I come home exhausted, I can't sleep!? WTF!?

Aches & Pains

Don't you just love how when you're in the middle of the 2WW (even if you're *trying* not to get worked up) every single thing seems like a "symptom"? Ridiculous. Exhausted? Check. Sore boobs? Check. Ravenous hunger? Check. Weird muscle pain? Check. Of course, these are also pms pains, so Im being really good and not getting worked up about it. I've also already decided that there is no way Im gonna test unless my period is late (AF is due 02-20, not that Im keeping track of course.) And even then, Im not telling anybody until we're like 6mos along (if there's a positive, which there won't be.) Anyway...

I've really had some serious pain in my clavicle and pec muscles. Serious like J at work tried to work out the kinks, and he had to apply some serious pressure and it literally hurt so bad it made my knees weak. He had to grab me to keep me from going to the ground. It was no good. I don't know what to do. Some muscle relaxers would be fantastic right about now. But I have to say, super hot bath really helped the muscles to stop spasming (at least for awhile). So for my 365-Day 40, is a pic my DH took while I was in the bathtub. Hopefully, you don't think it's too risque..and even if you do. Psssh. It's my blog and I'll TMI if I want to =)

Over It

We had a fight. It was bad news. But..the difference between now and a year ago, is that we are over it. Well, Im not completely, but I know that DH is sorry and I forgive him..Forgetting is what I struggle with. I won't hold a grudge, but I don't easily forget. It's a character flaw, what can I do? But we will be okay.

Today's 365 (day 39) will make you laugh. Allie is *such* a priss.

Could I be more unattractive? Ugh. Off to bed.

Need Some Advice Please

So today I was thinking about how next month we are supposed to start the Femara, how we are currently in the 2WW (which I don't think will have any kind of success), and how I feel like we have no plan whatsoever. So I wanted to know, my sweet bloggy friends...can you tell me how your RE/PCP/OB "planned" your fertility? Like how many medicated cycles, how many "natural" cycles, what advice can you give me? Should I be asking for a plan? And what questions should I be asking? I want to know why we are doing Femara and I haven't gotten any answers. I want to know if we can be on prophylactic Lovenox. I want to know how long we have to wait if we have another loss. Please, dearest internet, tell me what else I should be asking our RE. Im gonna try to get in on Thursday for a consult, hopefully I can get some questions answered. We'll see.

We are expecting btwn 6-10 more inches of snow tonight. We are under a winter storm warning until Wednesday afternoon..If it falls over 24 hours, that will be really good. It will give the plows time to get stuff done..if it all comes at once (like it did last Friday) then traffic will be awful. I've already told my boss it's gonna take me at least an hour to get to work in the AM (the snow is supposed to start falling after midnight), if not longer. Ugh. Im already dreading it. Im ready for winter to be over.

But this little girl & her llittle hat make it all worth it and adorable..I miss this girl.Hopefully we'll get to see her this weekend. She's had the croup and then strep..Baby awww...(Oh, and you know this is 365-Day 38)

Well Wah

So you already know the story..right? The Colts lost..and they kind of gave away the game in the end. They are usually a 2nd half team, tonight, we just didn't have it. The Saints came to win & they did. Ugh. What are we gonna do on Sundays until August?! Im gonna have to entertain DH..nooooooo. Even though it was a sad loss, we still went to a great party. My parents host a Super Bowl party every year, and this year there were about 30 of us, and SIL & her fiance came. It was a lot of fun, a TON of good food, and some yummy drinks. Here are some pics..Enjoy =)
Oh & PS, don't I feel dumb about posting pics of our 10inches of snow? My cousin (in Baltimore) got 33.5 inches. Lol..Oh well, it's big for us =)

E didn't want his picture taken. Plus, of course SIL & I didn't decide to start taking pics until the game had started. E was NOT having it. But hey, at least I look good =)

Thinking of looking good, these jeans make my ass look fantastic!! LOL..and apparently, I have lost some weight..DH has been telling me for weeks that I have, now, I can kind of see it ..and don't look too close @ our mirror. I didn't realize it was dirty-ish until after the flash went off. And oh yes I am making this 365-Day 37, cause dangit, I look good =)

Here's the SIL (Lindsey) and her *almost* fiance (Chad). They make the cutest couple. And she is so pretty. In every.single.picture. Ugh. To be gorgeous..=)

Here's the "Altar" my mom set up. It's all these Colts pictures and stuff that my dad has collected for his "man cave" that is going in their basement. It was really pretty.

And here is the altar up close. You can't tell, but these candles were glowing blue. It was so pretty. But the dang flash cut that right off.









Unfortunately, it's a loss for the Colts, but there's always next season =)

So Nervous!!

Is it ridiculous that Im nervous about the Super Bowl!? Is that not the dumbest thing? Also, I was talking to my friend A, and we decided that we didn't want to get to excited about the game in case that causes them to loose it..I know. As if we have anything to do w/the outcome. I never, ever thought I'd live to see the Colts in a Super Bowl..let alone TWO!! Im just super pumped. We're heading over to my parents house for a party in a little bit..And I'll let you know if the Colts win =)

It Snowed..A Lot (Well for Indiana)

365-Day 36 (the snow was about calf high, and thats where it had *not* drifted).



Here are the rest of the snow pics, taken this morning. I had some from when it was coming down, but of course I can't find the other camera (the one I used to take pics.) Dangit. Hey, if you got the big "Snowpocalypse" I think you should post pics too!!

The Long Awaited Update

Don't act like you all weren't all waiting w/baited breath for me to find the energy reserves to do a long update...Bahahhah. I know. A girl can have big blogging dreams...Anyhooters, Im gonna do this in my *favorite* form..Bullets..

• So if you read back to yesterdays post, I may have said something like "the NWS is calling for a winter storm, which means we won't get anything.." Umm. Big time wrong.

365-Day 35 (1)
Uh, this morning, when I left the house @ 7am, there was NO snow, no nothing on the ground. There's a good 2-3 inches right now. It's been snowing for about an hour. The next 8 hours ought to be fun.

Do you see how big the flakes are? This is PERFECT snowman snow. Wootie!!

• Okay, onward. I think I may have actually ovulated on my own. Wouldn't I just about have a fit? After not having a "normal" cycle since last June, this is would be fantastic. Im pretty pumped. And I talked to Dr. R and she said that the bleeding stuff that started on 01/20, was CD1, so there we are. Also, you know Bitch RN who works for Dr. R? Well here's a lovely thought from her...I asked if we should be temping/charting/doing "o" tests and she asked "well are you trying to have a baby?" What.The.F*ck?!!?!? Umm, nope, we're just seeing a FERTILITY SPECIALIST for shits & gigs. I've just had more people up my hoo-hah then a ho in the red light district for good times. I've been to ER, TWICE, met our insurance deductible 4-6 days after it started over TWICE, just for fun. Bitch RN is now also DimWit RN. I explained that we were told to take some time off b/c of the RPL and that Dr. R. wanted to see me in March for a u/s so we could start Femara (side note, shouldn't the RN have my chart and KNOW THIS?!) So, what little nugget of assvice does she say "a lot of people get pregnant when they relax and stop trying." Insert stunned silence and eye rolling so hard they about pop out. So I said "uh, Im never more relaxed then when my husband is having sex with me." Insert Bitch RN's stunned silence here. I had to hold back the gut shaking laughter. Oh, I didn't realize RELAXING would fix things. Dammit. Well now we'll get PG. Just relax. Suck it, Bitch RN.
• I am getting REAL tired of people who have no common sense and can't act like adults...then want to bitch when people are rude to them. Seriously. If you can't come in to work, fine, call BEFORE your supposed to be at work, not at the exact time (or later) that you are supposed to there. Also, if you have *no sense of time* leave early!! Don't come waltzing in 20/30/40 mins late and expect everything to be dandy. The rest of us were able to make it to work on time, wtf is wrong w/you? Also, if you've been at this job for a year, and you STILL don't know how to answer the phone/file patient paperwork/clean up after yourself, then maybe this isn't the job for you!!
• The as promised dress shopping pics..Im not gonna tell you which one she chose (and she's 99% sure it's "THE" dress) but maybe you can guess =)

• So there's my update. It's like a white-out here. Im totally gonna go watch the snow. Love it!!